We made it through another month of 2020! I am happy to say that I am still sane and in good health. This month I have learned to sit within the stillness of uncertainty with a clear mind.
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I have had quite a few moments of quiet time throughout November to not fill my mind with thoughts as I just inhale and exhale freely. The entire house would be silent, and my son would be asleep while my husband is at work. I would turn the ringer of the phone off and close my eyes. The feelings of worry and anxiousness would release. There were moments of stillness that I would just cry without a wondering mind as I would just pray to God.
The bible verse of this month was Proverbs 16:9 KJV
"A man's heart deviseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps."
I have been a serial planner since I was a teenager. I was
obsessed with having my entire day planned out an entire week in advance, if possible, in my planner. It’s a sense of control and being on top of things that makes
me feel lighter. I have been guilty of pre-planning my entire life as
much as possible, which has allowed God to humble me in many ways and on a few occasions.
I have even shared with a few close friends and my husband how God laughed
at my master plans that I thought I had down pack. What I have learned to do is
confined in the Lord in every area of my life. Allowing God to guide us to where
we need to take a heart that’s not prideful! I asked God to remove my pridefulness
from my heart many times. I had an intense desire for Him to just be free to
move within my life.
This month made me more intuned with how I am
setting goals, how I feel about myself in all areas of my life, and also how practicing
gratitude and compassion have helped shift my overall outlook on my prayer life.
I am ready to move forward into December with so much grace it would feel as if
I am just floating.
Feel free to share with me anything that you want to. I'm here to content with you.
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