Let me be real for a second.
Lately, it feels like my life has turned into a show I didn’t
audition for. I don’t even know the network, but somehow a lot of folks pulled
up a front-row seat. People who never checked for me before suddenly watching
my every move. People who once talked down to me now are scrolling through my
page to make sure they did not miss a post. Folks popping up, lurking, and
watching curiously.
It’s almost funny how peace makes you more noticeable than commotion
ever did.
I do not know why this is happening, but there is a shift. A
shift is happening in my life right now, and I didn’t expect it. I welcome it
though.
You see I have been minding my business. Raising my kids. Going to work. Focusing on school. Plus, I have protected my peace at all costs. This has all been my whole vibe for 2025. I am talking about discipline over drama.
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Elevation over explanation. I am embracing soft
femininity over the masculinity that arises with handling many responsibilities
alone. However, the moment I stopped trying to prove anything to anybody that
is when I stopped entertaining low-quality connections and closed off myself to
the dumb ish for the better.
When all this happened that is when people started watching me
the hardest.
I mean watching.
On Instagram.
On Facebook.
People who used to overlook me.
People who once tried to control and humble me.
People who dragged my name for filth.
People who gave me no closure.
They’re all unexpectedly paying attention like I am a whole season finale.
It’s wild.
Wild ASF.
The Glow That Comes From Peace Hits Different
I didn’t buy a new car (yet). Wink wink
I didn’t move into a luxury townhouse.
I didn’t start traveling abroad.
But I gained something money can’t buy and that is clarity.
I have been:
- Taking
care of my apartment
- Making
sure my kids are straight in all ways
- Staying
consistent with my goals
- Keeping
my boundaries tight
- Not
taking anything personally
- Walking
away from disrespect
- Pouring
into myself
- And
choosing silence over unnecessary talking
And somehow, that has a lot of folks pressed.
People underestimate the power of peace until you start embracing
the essence of it. It’s damn sure loud without you saying a word.
When You Level Up Quietly, They Feel It Loudly
Here’s the part that gets me, the folks who never cared before
suddenly want to know what I’m doing? What does my credit look like? Who I’m
talking to? Who I’m dating? How much I make? Where I be going without a car? Why
I’m so quiet? Why I’m glowin’. Come on I am now sure that they missed a couple
episodes/story posts and now they want the recap. However, there is no recap. No
re-runs. No explanations.
This era of my life is called see me when I post ‘cause you
never know when I will post again.
I’m Not the Same Woman I Was Three Years Ago
Truly, life has humbled me in ways I do not even talk about
publicly or even on my blog. The disrespect. The betrayal. The gaslighting. The
heartbreak. The struggling. The mom that often is looked at to be in survival
mode has changed me. However, instead of looking back at ways that could have
been breaking me, all these ways built me.
I’m sharper now.
Softer, but stronger.
Silent, but wiser.
More focused, and less available.
More intentional, and less forgiving of BS.
I’m finally walking in a version of myself I prayed for.
The Truth Is I’m Just Getting Started
People who see me now don’t know who I had to fight to become.
They don’t know the nights I cried. The mornings I pushed myself out of bed for
my kids. They don’t know about how I carried the stress alone and functioned with
a smile gracefully throughout my day. They do not know about the goals I stayed
committed to even when nobody was clapping.
Except they’re about to see the results.
This chapter of my life?
It’s not revenge.
It’s not proving anything.
It’s not trying to impress anybody.
It’s about building the life I always deserve in my 30’s and
letting the glow speak for itself.
So, if you see me quieter, or softer, and more selective, plus
more focused, and less accessible?
Just know:
I’m not hiding from people and their opinions. I’m transforming.
I know that transformation always makes people watch.
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