It’s amazing what our pride can make us do. I had a moment
this morning to self-reflect on some of my most negative traits. Whenever you
get an opportunity of having clarity with yourself, I recommend that you do the
same. Okay, so I was sitting down staring at a blank Microsoft Word document at
my dining room table. I was just thinking of the moves and of the decisions
that I could have done differently in the past few weeks.
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| MelodyJacob1-nappy |
One of the reasons why
I was in such deep thought was because I felt like I had let my pride get in
the way. I’m an Aquarius woman with a pride issue. I tend to play off my issues
and brush off my true feelings about a situation because I’m in a way prideful.
I do not want an event to look like a damn charity case, especially because I am
a mother and wife. My pride shifts to a higher level whenever I reflect on my
childhood. I think about how much growing up in poverty from 1-19 years old had
a drastic effect on how I live and view life.
When you grow up with no pot to piss in with a window to
throw it out o, you've differently. I vividly remember the Caucasian family that
my mama used to slave in their sugar cane field bring my two siblings and my food and clothes. They look at us reminded me of how some tribes
in Africa look at Caucasian people for the first time. It took years of prayer to let go of my feelings of embarrassment. I replaced those negative feelings with thankfulness.
My mama never minded looking
like a charity case. I despised it because of my value and potential. I just
knew that I could do so much better for myself. I knew that I had the hustle in
me to provide for my family way back then.
Today, I just feel like my
pride has shielded me from being a quote-unquote ass kisser. I’m in my own
lane. However, I know I need guidance. I’m seeking a mentor. I’m actively
praying for a mentor. I have no idea who God will place in my life to help me,
but I feel like she will be coming.
I will admit that I would love to have a mentor to help me excel.
It comes the point in all our lives where we must let our guard down and let someone
in. If you are struggling to pay a bill, mortgage, or rent t, my prayer for
you today is that someone knows. Even if that someone you know cannot
help you right away; the truth lies in the beauty of placing your pride to the
side. We all are going through something!
We all are finding or rediscovering
our passions in this lifetime. There is someone or some people who deeply
admire who we are! They don’t know how many tears, sleepless nights, and
frustrations led us to become who we are today.
There’s someone who wants to ask you something, and they are
afraid. They are bashful and prideful because they do not want to approach you, whether in person or via social media. Walk-in your light daily. I am here
to let you know that you should not let an ounce of pride hold you back from
anything. Be mindful of your strength.
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