Season 30 Ep 3
Looking Back: My 32nd Year
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Christmas Eve during the day feels chill. I have been counting down the days until Christmas break from work and school for weeks. I am blessed to say that this countdown has been worth it. The hours seem to have been moving slower this morning. The air feels lighter and less chill, but the fog seems to be cradling the area. The sounds of the busy highway carries a quiet sense of anticipation. There seems to be this in-between, but not yet the celebration, but full of meaning all the same vibe.
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I have so much peace! Living alone has taught me things no relationship ever has. There is a quiet power in having a space that belongs only to you. I love being able to come to every decision, every routine, and every moment of rest without asking a man if it’s okay before I go lay down. My apartment is not just where I live. It's where I decompress. Reset, This is where I come back to myself without explanation or interruption.
Have you been reflecting on this year yet? Well, I damn sure have. This year had weeks that pushed me, stretched me, and humbled me. I still somehow managed to understand and value the blessing within the lessons in ways I did not expect. When I sat down on Canva to create this 2025 mood board, I had R&B music playing from Spotify.
This Halloween season, I have made the sound decision that I am not dressing up. I am laying some versions of myself to rest.
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Losing yourself can happen slowly. Before you know it, you have given your energy to heartbreak, exhaustion, and responsibilities. One day you wake up and realize you’ve been surviving and not shining. However, there is no need to feel down and out. Your confidence isn’t gone. Your confidence is buried under the weight of everything you have carried.
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There may come a time when we do not even notice the ways we dim our own light. We think we are humble. We may even be trying to keep the peace, but we are quietly shrinking day after day.
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Maybe you have been thinking this too! There will be people that won’t clap for you because they’re too intimidated by your confidence. That’s okay, clapping is not a requirement for success.
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This September has left me speechless! I’m sitting here in awe and gratitude because She’s Found Strength just crossed over 20,000 reads this month. When I started this blog back in 2016, I never imagined it would grow into a space where thousands of women and men would stop by each month to read my story! There are people that reflect on my journey, feel moved from my blog posts, and find encouragement in my words.
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I recently talked about how the summer was a difficult season for me. Summer has been stretching me in ways I never expected. Between being a mom, working, going to school, writing, and still trying to make time for myself. I have felt the pull of every responsibility at once.
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Maybe you know this. There is something about fall that makes a lot of folks slow down and notice the little things. What little things? I’m talking about the crisp bite in the morning that feels like a reset. The quiet moments before 6am when you may just want to lay underneath your blanket a little while longer. This season, I promised myself I wouldn’t rush through my days. I want to savor them. I’m talking about even the small ones that look ordinary on paper.
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August broke me in ways I could not prepare for. Imagine losing your job on the same day of your daughter’s fourth birthday. This month knocked the wind out of me, and it was intentional. The blows came along with the fear of how I’ll hold everything together for my kids.
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This month… sheesh we are only fifteen days in.
It’s been a solid fifteen days of tears, happiness, and
anxiety.
I got laid off. My WFH job that I held down for 2 years is gone.
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How many seasons of your life that you have felt ignored, unseen and or overlooked? I can tell you that it has been many for me. I would grab my phone open up Instagram or Facebook and see a lot of other women’s lives taking off. I’m talking about their careers, degrees, trips, buying new cars and houses.
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See I didn’t even want to share publicly that I completed my associates degree and applied to a university to work towards completing my undergrad. But when something told me, “Go head on and do it Lynn just post it!”
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This summer, I made a decision that saved me. I am talking about intentionally saved me in a quiet, refreshing way that no one sometimes feels comfortable enough to talk about. I chose to go outside.
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Folks are going to talk. Regardless of how you talk, the fact that you are living your life, the way you are pursuing your goals, or the amount of peace you have now there may be comments or opinions about it.
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Hold up. You ready for me to tell you what’s up? *inserts me positioning my hair behind my left ear while I pull my seat up to you.*
I graduated from college this May. I did it!
Let me fluff this pillow on this sofa and hold it close to my chest while I tell you about the month of April. This month damn near bussed my head in a wall and had me heaped up by the throat gasping for air. I mean it shook me up and sat me down then tried to spit on my crazy tail self.
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Come over here and take a seat. Yes, right here. I wanted to remind you that I am sure you understand we are in the digital age where everything is documented, shared, and dissected. It can feel like we are expected to explain ourselves facing every question.
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