I Am Alone on Valentine's Day

I am alone but not lonely on the night of Valentine's Day. This is the day of love, romance, and affection, so folks say. As I sit here on my couch, wine in hand, I can't help but reflect on the journey that led me to this moment of solitude.

My kids are asleep. While society may portray this day as a celebration of togetherness, for many, it serves as a reminder of the complexities of modern dating and the elusive search for genuine connection.

In a world where swiping right has become the norm and instant gratification often takes precedence over meaningful relationships, it's easy to feel disheartened by the dating scene. As someone who values authenticity and consistency, I've found myself navigating through a sea of fleeting encounters and shallow connections, each one leaving me more disillusioned than the last. I damn sure do not want to be loving on Mr. Wrong. I am patiently waiting for Mr. Right On Time.

This Valentine's Day, I find myself alone, not by choice, but by circumstance. Every guy I was talking to seemed to conveniently distance himself as the day drew nearer, perhaps in an attempt to avoid the pressure of purchasing a gift or making any commitments. It's a familiar pattern—one that speaks volumes about the superficiality of modern romance and the reluctance to invest in something real.

But there is no need to feel disappointment and frustration, I've come to realize that being alone on Valentine's Day is not a reflection of my worth or desirability. Instead, it's an opportunity to prioritize self-love and introspection, to cherish my own company, and to nurture the relationship I have with myself.

Sipping wine from my couch in my apartment may not be the conventional way to spend Valentine's Day, but it's a choice I've made consciously and confidently. I refuse to settle for half-hearted connections and lukewarm efforts. I deserve more than sporadic attention and temporary companionship.

So, as many people are enjoying their gift of roses, chocolates, and romantic gestures, I'll be here, embracing my solitude and reveling in the freedom it brings. I'll treat myself to a decadent meal, indulge in my favorite book or movie, and wrap myself tight in my throw blanket.

To anyone else who finds themselves alone this Valentine's Day, remember this: your worth is not determined by your relationship status. You are complete and whole just as you are. You are deserving of love and respect in all its forms.

So, here's to a day of self-celebration, of honoring our hearts and choosing ourselves, over and over again. Happy Valentine's Day, to me, and to all the beautiful souls who refuse to settle for anything less than they deserve.