I can hear them snore from their beds as I peek my head into the bedroom. Christmas Eve in my apartment is quiet and yet it feels inviting. It is something about the pause before the morning, the deep breath held in before joy is released. My kids have been under the weather for the past three days with intense fevers. I have been holding it down as I overcame a fever and cold too. 

pexels

I did not enter this next season trying to get belts for being one of God’s strongest soldiers. I entered into this season trying to become more protected. After everything I had no choice but to release this year. I had to decide what was worth guarding and what no longer deserved access to me.

pexels

Let me tell you that November was a month that in ways pushed me, humbled me, and reminded me of the woman I am becoming. November for me was not a soft month. It was not an easy or carefree month. This month was exhausting, revealing, and necessary. As I take this time to look back, I can say I learned more about myself in these past few weeks than I have in a long time.

pexels

October 2nd will mark my first month into the role as an assistant teacher. I have been getting a lot of DMs and emails about what I do as well. Since stepping into my new role as a teacher’s assistant I have also been subbing for 6th and 7th graders.

Pexels

August broke me in ways I could not prepare for. Imagine losing your job on the same day of your daughter’s fourth birthday. This month knocked the wind out of me, and it was intentional. The blows came along with the fear of how I’ll hold everything together for my kids. 

pexels

This week felt like I was on the passenger side in a hell cat that was going over 175 miles an hour with all the windows down. I’m on the passenger side of the car screaming. The music is bleeding through the speakers. I can't make out the melody that is being played. The impact of the air is clogging my words in my throat. There's tears coming from my eyes. I’m looking over at the driver. I am not even being able to tell them to stop. The driver is a blur to me. Who is the damn driver? I just feel pure chaos with each roaring of the engine. This was week ride!

Pexels

This month tested me in ways that had me hurting.

Emotionally. Mentally. Spiritually. Financially.

pexels

Last Friday night, I went out & folks wanted me to paint the town red! Ha ha! However, it was not nothing major too major. I had an all dark pink two piece set on, titties sitting at attention, black and gold flats, and of course I had a nice gloss on my lips. 

Whew. One and a half million views in 30 days. No get rich quick schemes, pranks, no dancing to go-viral audios or no embarrassing my kids for views. Just raw, real, unfiltered posts. Can I say something too? I’m proud of myself.

I been playing music throughout the day to numb this loss I’m experiencing. My paran  Louis passed away this morning at Thibodaux Regional Hospital. He was in his early 70’s still trying to hold on and see the day through, but his body got tired of fighting. 

January 2025 came and so did a text message from the ex husband. He demanded to see our kids in a text message one Friday night, randomly. I thought about how many unanswered questions I had for my son and daughter about their father’s where abouts last year. I ended up disappointing myself. Again, Sha!

pexels

Here I go! It's a new year. I am happy to be still alive and well. I am happy to know that you stopped by to read my thoughts as well. I have been thinking about my life. So much has transpired in these few days into the new year that I do not want to touch on the depths of the topic.

Pexels

DMX said, “Let a dog roam, and he’ll find his way home. They always come back! Who is they? A man from your past popping up like he never left? Is he two steppin’ while, and sliding into your DMs, acting like he just wanted to say hey?

Pexels

So, this fall marks a whole year since I moved into my apartment.  Let me tell ya, it has been an empowering feeling! Between making this place comfortable, handling school, and keeping up with motherhood. It has been challenging at times! 

Photo by Brandy Kennedy on Unsplash

For a long time, I couldn't say no. I wanted people to like me, you know? I wanted to be helpful and not feel uncomfortable because I declined them. But it got to the point where I was swamped and stressed out. I hardly had time for myself or the things I wanted to do. Finally, I realized I had to start saying no more often.

unsplash

In this crazy world, things are getting more expensive every day, and it can be challenging trying to make ends meet with just a regular 9 to 5 job. As a single mom, I know how hard it can be to balance work, kids, and ME time all while trying to give my kids the best life possible.

pexels

Being a single divorced mom of two, I have to balance my feminine energy with the demands of parenting, work, and keeping my home in order. It can be quite the thrill! One thing that's helped me is buying and wearing more dresses. Even if I'm just cleaning around the house or running errands in the summer, it feels good to connect with that part of myself that sometimes gets buried under the weight of daily life.

pexels

What would it be if you had to leap of faith this year? How would you execute your plan of action? Do you believe it is attainable? These are questions that I asked myself when I was starting to script my journey to independence as a divorced single parent. 

pexels

May 2024 has been a transformative month. This month has been full of revelations, growth, and much joy! I've realized the immense value of trusting my instincts, nurturing my inner child, and prioritizing self-care. Let me take you through the highlights of what I've learned this month.

Pexels

Forgiveness is often touted as the ultimate virtue, admitting that I've become more discerning about who I forgive and how quickly I do so might seem controversial. But the truth is, that forgiveness is often touted as the ultimate virtue. I've become more discerning about who I forgive and how quickly I do so. I've understood that forgiveness doesn't equate to allowing repeated disrespect or boundary-crossing in my life.