In one year, my life changed for the better. Today is my son Eli Alan Hurd’s very first birthday. My husband and I are not throwing a huge birthday party or get-together. We are just having a small celebration within our apartment as of now. 

Some people gave me the side-eye whenever the conversation was sparked up about not throwing a birthday party for my son. I did not go into defense or said anything crazy with a neck roll at all. I just shrugged it off. I just feel blessed to be the mother of a healthy and energetic one-year-old! So, people can say whatever the hell they want! We still happy over here, and Eli isn’t upset about a thing.

In one year, my life changed for the better. My growth started with my mindset. Before I gave birth, I was nervous about the drastic changes. The drastic changes that were going to happen with my body, self-esteem, marriage, and finances. I did not know what to expect. 

You hear and read so many heart-wrenching stories from mom’s that it can become overwhelming. I knew that I was going into motherhood with a heart filled with love, patience, and understanding. I did not have much money in my bank account. In fact, I was broke wearing a priceless smile. It did not take me long to realize that many of the material things many people said that I needed for my baby weren’t necessary at all.

I had more to give my son than my mother had for me. I was blessed to raise my son in a two-parent household. I did not know anything about having a father figure in my life. For my son to have such an amazing bond a year later with his daddy warms my heart.

The first four months of post-partum were difficult for me. I cried and faulted myself for not having enough to offer. I am tough on myself because I value my worth too much to get comfortable. Becoming a stay-at-home-mom gave me so much time to reflect on my life than ever before. Moments where I am nursing, my son could lead my mind to where I was two years ago or how much I have grown? I sacrificed so much that I never knew existed. My prayers to God became so intense that they left me covered in goosebumps. 

For I know, I that I serve no ordinary God. I learned how to become more selfless. I learned the importance and value of self-care.

Crying became one of the arts of self-release. I grew closer to Christ and discovered how to distance myself from people who mean me no good. I realized the people who were down for me. I realized that I did not have many people who checked up on my family and me.
My motivation for growth grew. When you hold on to the humble beginnings, the rough times get easier. You want to know what? I’m still finding pieces of myself every day. It may seem crazy, but I know what I want out of life. 

Right now, I am working on becoming more self-discipline. I have moments that I’m stressed, upset, or conflicted with so many emotions. I do not want to get all preachy, but God has been better to me than I have been to myself this year. Within this one year, I would have lost my mind earlier on. I stayed prayed up no matter how good or bad things have been for me. I’m thankful for God’s grace over my family and me. This year has shown me that my faith in God can move mountains. 

If you are reading this, Eli, I want you to know that God’s love is unconditional. I love you so much that words cannot explain. I hope that my journey through life inspires you to never give up on your dreams. You have a purpose in this lifetime to fulfill. Do not allow anyone to stand in the way of your happiness and your passions. During your first year of life, I have witnessed your first steps at only seven months. I learned how attached you are to me and your breast milk too. You bring me so much joy, Eli. Keep on praying, smiling, and inspiring! Happy Birthday baby Hurd!

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  1. Wow!! I'm not doing anything special , but maybe treat my soon to be 1 yr old to pizza along with him and his brother. Happy Birthday to your little handsome son.I'm enjoying your blogs.