These past few weeks away from my blog has really lead me into deep thinking. I am now officially as of today 9 weeks pregnant. '

To many people, they may think, "Oh wow, Lynn! Do you want a cookie?"

I already have grasped on to the understanding that people who are already insecure about their own life and lifestyle will drag for someone like me regardless. However, I don't care for other people's input on the life that is growing inside of my womb and neither a got-damn cookie. I have admired many woman embrace motherhood with open arms and have reached out to many of those women before I even conceive. The more I truly think about these next six months are going to be, I thank God for this journey that I am on now.

I am blessed to say that God has chosen me to carry this life that my husband and I created. I use to think that I can plan for having my first child the way that I once did envision, but God had other plans. His plans really did come through and out-weighed mine for sure. I am 3 months into my pregnancy journey and I am facing it with just my husband, sister and mother (who are still in our home town), and just a few of my co-workers.

I am mainly a loner. I have no friends, but a lot of people that care for me from a distance. Currently, for me, reality is setting in even deeper. I need to have a financial plan in place. I am bracing myself mentally for months at home to raise my baby since I truly do not have any family around that will help me. Within that time, of being home and raising my baby I will take on my duties as a stay at home mother.

I use to be scared of the thought of staying at home and allowing my husband to be the sole provider, however, I am going to allow for God to work through my husband and our family. I want to encourage any woman out there who is stressed about becoming a mother for the first time or again, to find some quite time to write it out or talk it out with Christ.

I understand that it can be so annoying to think about finding someone or people to help you and that will truly stick around for you and your child needs. I understand that you feel alone and wish you had real friends that would help you and stop by to check up on you. It is okay. You are not alone. I am have decided to give my worries and frustrations to God. For it reads in

Philippians 4:19 - But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

Sometimes you can't help, but to worry. When you find yourself on the verge of stressing about the future say this prayer,

"Dear God, 

I come to you now asking that you clear my mind, heart, and soul from any worry and stress. I want to thank You for loving me and protecting me from things that were seen and unseen. I want to thank you for blessing me unconditionally. I am asking that you renew in me a clean spirit and you allow for me to walk in favor of your goodness. In Your Heavenly name, I pray, Amen." 

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  1. I absolutely love your blog. We actually share a lot in common and I'm thankful that I came across your posting. I'm also am a new mom to a 4 month old baby girl and I wish I came across something like this when I was pregnant, this truly inspired me and I know that it will touch other young married women out there. I pray blessings over your marriage, pregnancy and a speedy complication free delivery.
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    1. Thank you so much Rajanee! I truly appreciate your kind and heart felt words. Congratulations on becoming a mother! I pray that your marriage and love for God continues to blossom! Your blog is really nice so far too!