Christmas Eve during the day feels chill. I have been counting down the days until Christmas break from work and school for weeks. I am blessed to say that this countdown has been worth it. The hours seem to have been moving slower this morning. The air feels lighter and less chill, but the fog seems to be cradling the area. The sounds of the busy highway carries a quiet sense of anticipation. There seems to be this in-between, but not yet the celebration, but full of meaning all the same vibe. 

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I did not enter this next season trying to get belts for being one of God’s strongest soldiers. I entered into this season trying to become more protected. After everything I had no choice but to release this year. I had to decide what was worth guarding and what no longer deserved access to me.

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Lessons have been well learned for me and my emotional ass especially before my cycle came. I have learned this month to stop expecting and having expectations for certain people to show up the way I would have for them. Being a writer, I love character development. I develop traits for people I interact with during the week and month in my mind as I study them. December had a way of slowing me down and not just when it came to fighting for my immune system. This month was forcing me to pay attention to patterns. Patterns that had been ignored for far too long.

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Let me tell you this; my Monday went fine. I got up, by God’s grace. I got myself together. I went to work determined to make it a productive day. I had no clue I was walking straight into a storm that someone else created. However,  I handled it with a level of strength I did not even know I still had.

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I was excited ASF the evening I sat down at my dining room table to create my 2025 vision board. I was doing it all from my phone after watching a motivational YouTube video. I wanted to high-step into new opportunities. I was determined to experience financial growth. I was looking forward to embracing more of my motherhood journey. Gain more stability. I wanted to bask in soft life energy. 

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December often feels a little all over the place, yet this year I’ve decided to make sense of this holiday season. After everything 2025 put me through I wanted to bring light it all. The lessons. The heaviness. The exhaustion. The wins. The breakthroughs. The quiet nights I had to hold myself together. I wanted this year to end gently. Intentionally. Softly. I wanted to bask in gratitude for the woman I’ve grown into.